Today is day 1 of living into my new season of reinvention. That is, reinventing myself into protecting my successful corporate persona while maintaining clear boundaries and choosing me. Meaning, choosing my current priorities and goals (the Kate-focused ones!) before anything else on my to do list.
You see, my success to date has been driven by my desire to appear successful to the gaze of others. Let’s call it what it is – ego.
I’ve single handedly built, brick by brick, every success and failure in my life and been left with the very proud outcome of manifesting everything I’ve ever wanted. The material things anyway.
Like so many that have come before me though, I fell into the all familiar trap that we are warned about. “Having it all and still feeling empty.”
“Empty” might be a little dramatic in my case. I am incredibly grateful for the incredible life I live. I have the perfect hot husband (Jason Statham vibes), the Melbourne Victorian home of my dreams, great health, a corporate career I seemingly keep thriving in somehow (even when I am not sure I want to) and friends that sitcoms couldn’t even write about as beautifully…
Even still, I frequently run the risk of burning myself into the ground (I’m known to fall into a little bit of a burnout cycle from time to time!) if only because I’ve not yet learned that success does not mean it has to come at the cost of my own needs. It’s as if I’ve felt that everything I’ve created means I simply must grip it so tightly or I run the risk of losing it all.
This is the next phase of growth. The next reinvention.
The new season of me will be the boss babe I am, who protects her energy first, invests in her health knowing that putting the oxygen mask on herself is the only way to reach the next level of success ahead of me.
Reinvention Era 6.0*
*Why 6.0? Yeah, this ‘ain’t my first rodeo. I’ll be sharing reflections on my many eras of reinvention that have single handedly enabled me to manifest everything I’ve ever wanted while sitting in the top 1% of Australian earners.
| Becoming Her | To Obtain This |
| Invests in her health first (nutrition, hydration, movement) | Deeper self esteem, self respect and a muscle of compassionate discipline |
| Conscious of her emotional energy capacity | Consistency and ongoing focus on the highest impact areas |
| Maintains creative and artistic practices just for her to connect to herself (why hello blogging)! | High emotional energy and the capacity to support others by acknowledging my needs and desires |
| Is fiercely present in order to maximise joy in every moment | Deeper connection with my husband, family, friends and feline fur-baby |
| Fiercely organised, delegates precisely, high level of discernment, focus and boundaries for what I say “yes” to | Maintain and protect career success and growth without it being at the cost of personal desires and goals |
It’s day one. Morning one. 5:36am. I already feel that familiar pull….
“You should check your email, reply to those messages on LinkedIn, check your calendar again…”
My reinvention era persona fires back. “We planned the week ahead over yesterday’s Chardonnay. Your calendar is in good form. You promised yourself a morning blog post and a walk. You’re finishing this post and going for a walk.”
(That’s that compassionate discipline I was talking about)
I know that the first step on this journey is keeping the commitment to myself. I’ve been through many season’s of reinvention but I truly believe this era will be the toughest nut to crack yet.
It is effectively breaking through my learned perfectionism, underneath which is a deep fear that everything could fall apart if I loosen my grip ever so slightly.
As a survival mechanism, and from every moment of failure I have experienced along the way, I’ve developed a very strong limiting belief and neural pathway that it is because I grip so tightly, do so much, self-sacrifice my needs, that I have “it all”.
But this is just a limiting belief that is stopping me from living into my next phase of growth and my true potential.
To become the woman I know I can be, one who smashes her career, has multiple side projects buzzing (for her soul and to give back to others), the first step is learning that choosing me does not mean neglecting all that I’ve built.
So time to lace up those runners and head out for that walk.
Kate xx